I make people kiss....

yeah bitches!

Mon, 26 Dec 2005 19:32:08 GMT

It's my birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tue, 19 Jul 2005 02:11:07 GMT

Oaky, So I know I'm super late on this on, but here goes...fun kids!

1. Reply with your name and I will write something I like about you.

2. I will then tell what song reminds me of you.

3. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, I'll tell you what it would be.

4. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.

5. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.

6. I will tell you what color you remind me of.

7. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.

Tue, 19 Jul 2005 02:03:50 GMT

I just spent about 30 mins writing this big long post about things that ahve been happening with me, my two jobs, my car troubles, and Eric...then my computer crashers and I lose it all....DAMN!

And down the hill we go..

Sat, 11 Jun 2005 16:34:41 GMT

THings with Eric were really good. Like really. I've been falling in love with him. He said he was too, he actually brought it up first. But then I gfet this phone call last ngiht. Apparently he was at riverbend with another girl. THat part is okay. I don't mind him ahving friends that aare girls. But then I get another phone call....he is hugging, kissing, holding, etc this girl....gotta go get the car..more later, shit!

Of course...

Fri, 10 Jun 2005 16:54:04 GMT

Well...I am not going to pick up my car today. Something came up with my dad, so I have to wait till tomorrow. I know this doesn't seem like a big deal to anyone else, but it is to me. I was so excited. I ahd friends telling me how great it felt to drive their own car for hte first time. I had my nephew and his mom DYING to see it. Micah was going to "make sure it was an okay police/fireman car". I got up early (7:30) this morning so I could see my nephew before he went to the summer camp because I wasn't going to see him again until dinner tonight. After he left, I ahd nothing to do nad couldn't fall asleep, so I started getting ready. I painted my nails and toenails. I plucked my eyebrows. I took a long shower and shaved. I even put on glitter/shimmer and makeup. I was so excited. It was also important for me because of the bonding expirence for my dad and I. I had really big hopes that it would possibly bring us a little closer which is what we really really need. Plus, I was goign to pick up my check after I got the car. My dad was going to grocery shopping with me, or give me money, so i could stock my fridge. I also have no shampoo or conditioner because I was promised I'd be going today...I wanted to get some stuff from my dads house. I need sneakers so I can go to the Y with my uncle to work out. I need...jsut a bunch of stuff. imagine leaving you house to go live soemwhere else and only taking a week's worth of clothes, a little shampoo, conditioner, soap, and razers. I need a bunch of stuff. I wanted to get my books so I could go to McKAys ASAP. I had alot to do. Now I cna't do it until monday or tuesday.Tomorrow I'm supposed to be helping my unlce move into his new office. I'm supposed to be going to his neighborhood block party with my nephew. I'm supposed to be going to see Eric and then going to Angela's to get ready for Riverbend. Now, I have to knock things off my to-do list so I can get the car. I suppose this sounds really superfical and stupid.

Its like, karma just bit my ass. I knew something would happen. Things have been going to well this week. I've gotten into NO arguments; my dad and I have both been relativly happy, and so much more. THings were jsut to good. THats not my life. I know I'm reading way to much into this. Its just I knew something would happen and I was right. Normally I like being right, but I dind't want to be right about this.

CRAP!

fun in the sun, or no sun...

Thu, 09 Jun 2005 14:10:54 GMT

Today I have a very important date! I am hanging with my nephew. Yep, Auntie Windsey had duty to go to the park and then sonic. Fun~!~ Then, later on today, I have to go to work. Hopefully, Monday I will beable to go job hunting. Bi-Lo is only letting me work 10 hours a week. That means I make like $50 a week. At that rate I will never be able to get the $2,000 for the car. I have a few things lined up and few that I need to line up. Big hopes right here. Woot woot! I will probably let Bi-Lo go. If one out of the handful of jobs comes through, I will beworking so much there, it will be useless to keep Bi-Lo. Don't u love me perspective. I will let THEM go. Ha Ha. I crack myself up.

Have a good day, those of you who actually read this (which is probably like 3 people. thats okay, I lvoe you guys tons!).

Oh, I painted my nails last nite! They are a really cute light pink.

Micah sat there for like an hour and watched me. He's so cute. Asking questions and saying things like "Windsey, do you remember when I was very little - you were very very gentle with me. Will you be very very gentle with baby brother? Will you love him? Do you remember when I was little you changed my poopie diapers. Will you change baby brother's poopie diapers, because I don't want to. They will be very stinky like mine were when i was very little." He is three and is going through a stage where everything starts or ends with "when I was little". He has an amazing memeory. He can remember not sharing a piece of cucumber with me when he was about 18 months. Its wild.

Girls names please...

Thu, 09 Jun 2005 00:40:27 GMT

My dad is going to pick up my car on Friday. Since the car wreck my dad decided that I need my own car. Since I am staying a tmy uncles house, I'll probably get to keep it here with me. For awhile I'll probably only beable to drive to and from work and while I am job hunting for a while. I will get to drive to McKays in MY car to trade in my 100 (!) books for different ones. Yeah, well. I'm not gettint the car for free. But thats okay. "Nothing in life is free", right? I ahve to give my dad $2,000 before I have my driving resrictions (like only driving to work) removed. By the time I start college, I have to give him $2,500 in addition to the initial $2,000. My car in a '92 Honda Civic. It's white with beige interior. The inside, and outside, look BRAND NEW. The only thing wrong with it is the old owner hit the hubcaps on curbs sometimes, but you can't see the marks unless of look for them, and that can be fixed with rims that I will eventually get. It runs great! It only has 89,000 miles (it can prolly get more than 200,000). It only had one owner nad normally sat in their garage. THe only thing thats upsets me is that it does not have a c.d. player, but for about $150 (including wiring-since its older- and the c.d. player) I can fix that!

WHAT SHOULD I NAME IT?

A brighter side maybe?

Tue, 07 Jun 2005 03:10:26 GMT

Well, today was shaping up to be another bad one. I had to go to "family therapy" and then I had to go to work. And, of course, for the second times in a row, 'she' was working, it was horrible. But I lived through it to get to the brighter part of the day. My uncle pickes me up from work, took me to my house to get some stuff, and now I am at his house. I am in the downstairs appartment. Yeah, coolness right? I have a bedroom, bathroom, kitchen and adjoining livingroom. So I finally have my own space. I am in a neighborhood that gets the bus. I can ride the bus to hamiltonplace, and from there to downtown, northgate, or even better, Erics House (I love him by the way, yeah, its great and scary, but thats a different subject). But, the most important part is I fainlly ahve structure. I have set rules here, and even better, I have set consiquences. For alot of people, its weird the I am so excited. But for me, this is amazing. Part of the reason I am so unhappy in my fathers home is because I recieve almost no discipline. I when i do recieve some, its bendible, or my father gives in. I thrive on rules, chores, and knowing that when i break a rule or don't do something asked of me - I GET A SET PUNISHMENT! Yeah, weird, but try to see it from my view. Plus I get to play with my nephew all the time. He is by far the best Micah I know, and the sweetest kid! So maybe, with some structure, time, love, and 'fresh air', I can finally heal. Maybe, just maybe, I can start a new, more postive, chapter in my life. At the least, I will find out if I am as horrible, worthless, untrustworthy, and wretched as I've been made to feel. Maybe whe nI go to sleep at night, I'll be excited to wake up. Maybe when I wake up, I'll wanna get up and and see the sun (or lack there of). Maybe I'll have an opportunity to become stronger. Ya know, everyone says the going through the crap makes you stronger. Maybe this break from some major crap will give me a chance to get stronger. Or maybe I'm just kidding myself and things will not improve. The only way to know is to give it a chance. Just a trial. A trial that I go into positivly, or atleast with a positive attitude. I've tried some many other things that have not worked, maybe this will. I guess I'll find out in time. Funny, never thought I'd be one to say 'in time'. Hey, maybe some extra patience and even better....maturity are kicking in. Cool....

I'll just complain.

Mon, 06 Jun 2005 04:28:42 GMT

I am posting tonight/this morning out of shear...heat shock. We have NO AIR CONDITIONING! none at all. I am on the second floor. I can not breath. It was bad enough with my regular..well..almost non-stop hot flashes. Now i feel like i am dying. For anyone who knows me, you know how horrible this is. For those who don't: I AM ALWAYS HOT. When normal people are perfect or cold, I am burning up.

My life has been going downhill at a rapid pace. I am not writing this because I want pity. I don't want everyone to think, awww poor lindsey. I am merely doing this to get some things off my chest. I stopped writing in my LJ because I noticed all of my posts made me seem completely pathetic. I suppose I am.

I have come to realize that I am pretty much worthless. Or..I've come to realize thats how alot of people see me. I am trying really had to stay true to myself and not let that get to me and change how i see myself. But its really hard. My father and I are not on a speaking basis at the moment. I got in a car wreck in "HIS BABY" last tuesday. Now I am paying the ultimate price of being stuck in this house all summer long. I get to go to work and that is about it. Now for those of you who have seen my room, you probably thinking, you ahve so much stuff in there. Yeah, I have a computer, radio, T.V. But that does nothing for me. I refuse to spend my summer sitting on my ass doing nothing. THats not me. I've been so bored the past week and a half, I have cleaned the garage (two car); completely redone my room, closet, and bathroom; done dishes and ran the dishwasher 5 times (alot for only two people dirtying dishes); reorganized the cabinets and pantry twice; washed every piece of clothing i own, including bleaching all my whites; and done tons of other things.

My punishment of being stuck in this house is horrible. Especially if you consider what I am in trouble for. I broke curfew a few times and didn't call every 10 seconds (my phone was so screwed). For that, my dad feels that I need to be on medication. Apparently I am ioutrageous, wild, and out of control. Now, considering what I could be doing (drinking, doing drugs, dropping out, getting pregnant, etc.) I'm not that bad. I'm not allowed to drive until I am on medication. Now, it doesn't matter how I feel about the situation. I know myself. I ruse to become dependant to medication to solve my problems. *To anyone on meds. I am not dissing, jsut saying thats not me* Now, I'm not judging with no proof. I was on medicatrion for almost a year, and the only thing that come out of that was an emergency room bill. Yeah, I didn't need to be on them, so I had all the side effects. I lost feeling in my legs, I would start shaking, my jar locked open, and so on. Hillary and Patti even went with me to the emergency room. I refuse to go back to that!

There's more, but I feel self pity coming on so I'm gonna stop for now.......

Mon, 28 Mar 2005 02:22:56 GMT

1) First Grade Teacher: I have no idea…
2) Last word you said: whatever
3) Last song you sang: Number 12 on the old Ashanti c.d., I don’t know the name…
4) Last person you hugged: Eric
5) Last thing you laughed at: “Hi, my name is Eric and I am grateful to be here at Smilers Anonymous. I fell off the bandwagon when my girlfreind made my give my smile away to her…FINE! Have my chips back!” haha, laughing again!
6) Last time you said 'I love you': um, around 3:45 to Kendra…
7) Last time you cried: last night
8) What's in your CD player: Ashanti and Young Jeezy (not together, two separate c.d. players…)
9) What colour socks are you wearing: none
10) What's under your bed: two empty alcohol bottles
11) What time did you wake up today: um, around 9 when Eric stole the covers, 10 when he cuddled up to me, then 11 when I finally ACTUALLY got up..
12) Current taste: Moose Tracks Ice Cream
13) Current hair: soft, up in a half pony tail, sorta messy..
14) Current clothes: tank top/pj pants
15) Current annoyance: my muscle relaxer not working yet
16) Current longing: I want Eric to be here with me right now, and I want my new cell phone..
17) Current desktop picture: My sisters and Donnie at Tiffs baby shower
18) Current worry: ulgh, tons…
19) Current hate: a lot of things going on right now, mostly the way I get treated
20) Story behind your LJ username: my siter made it up for me when I first got aim, I was too lazy to pick a new one…
21) Current favourite article of clothing: tank tops
22) Favourite physical feature of the opposite sex: eyes and smile
22a) Favourite physical feature of the same sex: does it matter?
23) Last CD that you bought:I have no idea…blank c.d.s, do they count?
24) Favourite place to be: on the beach with no parents and a bunch of my friends…
25) Least favourite place: School or Home
26) Time you wake up in the morning: Early
27) If you could play an instrument, what would it be: piano
28) Favourite color: pink
29) Do you believe in an afterlife: no
30) How tall are you: 5'1 1/2
31) Current favourite word/saying: ulgh, Fuck Me! Damn…or Sssssssss’
32) Favourite book:um, Angels and Demons maybe
33) Favourite season: late summer/early fall
34) One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: um, my mom, before I was born, I’d wanna talk to her
35) Favourite day: Fridays or Saturdays
36) Where do you want to go:anywhere but here
37) What is your career going to be like: wonderful and fun
39) What kind of car will you have: an SUV, pimped out of course, and an old school ’89 Caddy Seville
40) Type a line you remember from any book:"The longer you live the more complicated life gets…"
41) A random lyric: : got a house around my neck and my wrist on chill…..im the shit, bitch, i need toilet paper
42) Identify some things surrounding your computer: books nad a Cheez-it box

WHAT:
1. is your name: Lindsey
2. is your nickname:Indsey, Lil’ Angel, Baby, Baby Girl
3. are you wearing: already awnsered that
4. is your favorite thing to do: at the moment chill my with boys in HP
5. is your room like: really super clean…
6. is your favorite drink: um, Northland Cranberry Juice
7. is your car: um, I currently share my dads car, a VW Jetta WAgon
8. is your job:Cashier at Bi-Lo
9. is your education: Sophmore in Highshcool
10. is your favorite holiday: um, fourth of july
HAVE YOU:
1. Fallen for your best friend?: Nope
3. Been rejected?: yes
4. Been in love?: yes
5. Been used?: yes
6. Why did you feel inclined to add a question 7?: what?
7. Done something you regret?: yes, always

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
9. You hugged: Eric
10. You talked to?: Mike, my big brother….
12. You instant messaged?: um, I have no idea
13. You yelled at?: my dad
14. You laughed with?: Eric, Adam, Kendra, Larry, Jones, and C-Weezy
15. Who broke your heart?: I don’t wanna say

DO YOU...
19. Color your hair?: yeah
20. Have tattoos?: I will as soon as my big bro takes me///
21. Have piercings?: just my ears, but after I buy my phone, my next paycheck is going to my belly button piercing..yes, my fat
22. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend? yes
23. Own a webcam? no
24. Own a thong? Yes
25. Ever get off the damn computer? yep
27. Habla espanol? non, Francais

HAVE YOU/DO YOU/ARE YOU...
29. Stolen anything? no
30. Smoke? yes
32. Obsessive? yes
33. Compulsive? yes
34. Obsessive compulsive? very
35. Panic? occasionally
36. Anxiety? no
37. Depressed? yeah
38. Suicidal? Have been to some extent
39. Obsessed with hate? nope
40. Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, gore? No, well, my own death sometimes, but…yeah, hell no other than that..

*QUESTIONS*
41. If you could be anywhere, where would you be? The beach w/ my peeps
42. Can you do anything freakish with your body? Of course not….
43. What facial feature do you find the most attractive on others? Eyes and smiles
44. Would you vote for a woman candidate for president? yes
45. Would you marry for money?: No
46. Have you had braces?: yes
47. Do you pluck your eyebrows? yep
48. Do you like hairy backs? HELL NO
49. Do you like hairy crotches?: no..
50. Could you live without a computer?: yes
51. Do you use ICQ, AOL Buddy list etc: Yes
52. If so, how many people are on your list(s)?: lots
53. If you could live in any past, where would it be: not sure
54. Do you wear white socks?: yes
55. Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off?: both, I wear schoes in the house, but I take them off in my room
56. Your favorite fruit?: strawberries
57. Do you eat wheat bread or white?: honey wheat
58. What is your favorite place to visit?: the beach and mississippi
59. What is the last movie you saw?: um, Pootytang, damn my brother, Cantrell, and Marc!
60. Are you religious?: no, I wish I was though
61. Are you photogenic?: Hell no
62. Do you dream in color or black and white?: color

63. Are you wearing fingernail polish? no.
64. Is it chipped or fresh?:...no..?
65. Do you have any dimples? Yes
66. Do you remember being born? nope
67. Why do you take surveys? im really bored
68. Do you drink alcohol? Yes, I ahd sex on the beach last night….hahaha!
69. Did you like or do you dislike high school?: it goes back and forth
70. What is the best accent? southern!!!
71. Who do you want to kiss? Right now, Eric…
72. Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most?: Sunsets
73. Do you want to live to be 100?: No
74. Is a flat stomach important to you?: my own yes, I like guys with flat stomachs but its not that important
75. Do you or have you played with a ouija board? Yes I have
76. Are you loyal?: yes
77. Are you tolerant of other peoples beliefs?: yes
78. At home, do you like the lights on or off?: off!!
79. Do you like your nose?: its okay
80. Do you think you can draw well?: no
81. At what age did you find out that Santa Clause wasn't real?: I always knew, my mom was awlays so drunk I had to help her put presents under the tree…
82. How many pairs of shoes do have in your closet?: um, in my closet, 2, my room, maybe 10
83. Do you like to wear the same shoes everyday or do you like a variety? Mostly I only wear two or three pairs
84. Do you write poetry?: nope
85. Snore?: nope
86. Do you sleep more on your back or front? both
87. Cats/Dogs?: dogs
88. Do you lick stamps?:no
89. Do you use an electric can opener?: yes
90. Have you ridden in a hotair balloon?: when I was little
91. Do you talk to yourself?: no
92. Are you judgmental?: no, well, I try not to be

HOW OLD WERE YOU WHEN...
93. Smoked your first cigarette?: 14, well, actually about 5….it sucked at 5..
94. Got drunk for the first time?: 15
95. Smoked pot for the first time?: um, really young, and then 13 or 14
96. Kissed someone? 5
97. Made out with someone?: 11

Work!

Sat, 19 Mar 2005 17:06:17 GMT

I finally got a job. I am working at the Bi-Lo on Highway 58 (come see me!)
I am busy busy busy. I worked last night from 5pm till 12am, I work today from 12pm to 8pm, and between Sunday (tomorrow) and Friday I work a total of 28 hours...I get paid $6 an hour, anyone wanna total how much my check will be on friday? hehe...Love you guys!!!

Sat, 19 Mar 2005 17:03:33 GMT

Fri, 04 Feb 2005 03:37:48 GMT

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LJ Username

Your alias first-name is:

Your alias last-name is:

You can turn....

...into:

You team up with...

tsjdancer29

...to battle:

Bill Gates

You petition to join:

the Kansas City Royals

Their response:

they agree, and you celebrate by getting roaring drunk and randomly calling old people

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meeting the President and flipping him off with both hands

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Wed, 02 Feb 2005 04:04:21 GMT

So, why is it that I get stuck in situations where my close friends know the they can always come to me to talk, that I'll drop whatever i am doing for them. But when i need someone to talk to everyone seems to be WAY to busy. Guys, this isn't just one of my stupid family fights and messed up personal things. This is serious. Darius is NOT OKAY! He is NOT GETTING BETTER! atleast not for now. I'd love it if the people who always come to me would pull their heads out of their asses and be there for me. I know this sounds selfish, but i need help. I can't get through this by myself. And I know that everyone says to me, well I'm here if you need me. But are you? Are you really there for me? Maybe I'm making more of this than I should. Maybe I'm being stupid, maybe this is only a big deal to me. But whatever the case....I'd love it is my so called friends could be there for me.

Fri, 14 Jan 2005 01:33:37 GMT

>This is cute and I know it will make you laugh!
>
>Give The Frog A Loan
>A frog goes into a bank and approaches the teller. He can see from her
>nameplate that her name is Patricia Whack.
>
>"Miss Whack, I'd like to get a $30,000 loan to take a holiday."
>
>Patty looks at the frog in disbelief and asks his name. The frog says his
>name is Kermit Jagger, his dad is Mick Jagger, and that it's okay, he knows
>the bank manager.
>
>Patty explains that he will need to secure the loan with some collateral.
>
>The frog says, "Sure. I have this," and produces a tiny porcelain elephant,
>about an inch tall, bright pink and perfectly formed.
>
>Very confused, Patty explains that she'll have to consult with the bank
>manager and disappears into a back office.
>
>She finds the manager and says, "There's a frog called Kermit Jagger out
>there who claims to know you and wants to borrow $30,000, and he wants to
>use this as collateral."
>
>She holds up the tiny pink elephant. "I mean, what in the world is this?"
>
>
>(you're gonna love this)
>

>
>(its a real treat)
>

>
>(a masterpiece)
>
>
>(wait for it)
>
>
>
>
>
>The bank manager looks back at her and says...
>
>"It's a knickknack, Patty Whack. Give the frog a loan. His old man's a
>Rolling Stone."
>
>
>
>(You're singing it, aren't you? Yeah, I know you are........)

>Never take life too seriously! Come on now, you grinned, I know you did!!!
>
>Have a good'n

Sun, 09 Jan 2005 17:23:49 GMT

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Fri, 31 Dec 2004 18:34:41 GMT

1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before? : Admitted to myself that my life may never be great or easy, but its mine and i just have to live with it and try to be happy...amoung other things that are less important

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? : I didn't keep them, but I am making new ones tonight, with my boyfriend and with myself

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? : yes, my sissy...

4. Did anyone close to you die? : no...

5. What countries did you visit? : Mexico

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004? : A car and love within my blood family...

7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? : not a date, a month...July...I was in mississippi with the people closest to my fmaily...my family really

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? : teaching myeslf to love and trust and be okay with it...although I'm still working on it a little. Also, I have honor or even star roll...

9. What was your biggest failure?: Trusting too much

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? : Jellyfish got me...

11. What was the best thing you bought? : Um, my big red fuzzy die that i got yesterday...

12. Whose behavior merited celebration? Why?: My sister Mary, she is taking care of her sisters baby at 15...I'm so proud of her...

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?: Wow, alot of peoples..

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?: Gogin to mississippi and Devons birth

16. What song will always remind you of 2004?: Usher's "Yeah"

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder?: not sure, at this point I'd say both in different parts of my life..
ii. thinner or fatter?: thinner..a little
iii. richer or poorer?: poorer

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?: Social things

19. What do you wish you'd done less of? : fighting

20. How will you be spending Christmas?: away from everyone I love crying in my hotel room in mexico

22. Did you fall in love in 2004?: Yes, jsut recently

23. How many one-night stands? : 3

24. What was your favorite TV program?: Desperate Housewives

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?: yes, Micah, Brittany, Edwin (not lesure) and my dad

26. What was the best book you read?: Angels and Demons

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?: not sure..

28. What did you want and get?: somone who loved and cares about me in a different way...

30. What was your favorite film of the year: Man on Fire I think

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?: Cried in my hotel room, watched my dad dry hump a woman, drank 5 Coronas...and creid some more...16

32.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? : Momma D, Mary, and Devon moving here...

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?: Comfortable and show off the BOOBIES!

34. What kept you sane?: Music

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?: not sure

36. What political issue stirred you the most?: Bush being elected AGAIN

37. Who did you miss?: My family...being Loved

38. Who was the best new person you met?: Darius

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004: No matter what happens of how you feel, there is always someone who cares about you enough to cry at your death...

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
either:
"I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry"

"And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can’t pretend that
I’m alright
And you can’t change me"

Well...

Tue, 28 Dec 2004 04:03:08 GMT

My birthday sucked, like i new it would...My dad gave me a card because i asked for one the night before my birthday.well...asked if i was getting a card, since mexico was 'my trip' i wanted something i could open, and i card is 99 cents with some though, care, lvoe...in the form of words. so anyway, my dad hard this womans son do a card in highlighter. he gave it to me sunday morning.....and...MY NAME WAS SPELT WRONG...and it was the biggest thing on teh card. Dad didn't even notice. to make things worse, he wrote no more than 2 lines in it. Guess he was in to much of a hurry to nail the mom, right? YEAH...he spent MY birthday, with some other woman. Anna forgot it was my birthday, did't care. My prestent from my dad was gettin to watch him pretty much dry hump and fondle some sleezy woman all day. He didn't notice I downed 5 Coronas...with I did to see if he would. I am only sixteen right?...things were worse but i cna't write anymore, I still so upset..hysterical..and I am once agian crying and shaking....
gettin my liscence *hopefully* tomorrow....

Sun, 19 Dec 2004 21:00:15 GMT

GREAT! So, right now, i should be getting on my plane from atlanta to mexico...but because i did't ahve my mother with me or a note from her with her permission for me to go to mexico, i am at home. How am i supposed to get something like that if i haven't even seen the woman for a year. they didn't care that my dad has sole custody.....DAMN IT! Yet again, another reason why i have the holidays!!!!!!!!!

Saturday...

Sat, 18 Dec 2004 16:55:30 GMT

I leave for Mexico tomorrow. No one has called to wish me a happy holidays or a happy early birthday...sucky. It also sucks that the Jew Holidays are over and my dad's side has not wished a happy holidays or anything. Does no one in my family realize the ONLY GIRL IS ABOUT TO BE 16?!?!?!?! Yes, I am the only girl and the second one of my moms side to hit 16, the first and only on my dads side. I hate the fuckin holidays!!! GOD! I'm so ready for school to start again so I don't have to sit here and think about my screwed up family. Going to Mexico, getting my braces taken off (already), and getting my licensce mean nothing to me if I have NO family to share it with.....oh well....
Happy Fucking Holidays Folks

Sun, 28 Nov 2004 21:24:52 GMT

I am so tired!!! I just cleaned the whole eating room! i did the counters, the oven, I completely cleaned out the food cabinets, i moved the table and chairs out of the kitchen and vaccumed then used the shampoo-er on the floor. I spent 3 nad a hlaf hours in there. Now I get to clean my room...YAY! the weird thing is that no one asked me to clean the kitchen. I went into one of my OCD things and just started cleaning...intersting....

Hmmm...

Sat, 27 Nov 2004 15:44:53 GMT

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Sat, 27 Nov 2004 03:32:19 GMT

Okay, so...Darius is a keeper!! OMG! *smiles* anyways. I had great fun with Hill, Zach, And Caleb before the movie!!Grand Illumination was B-E-A-U-Tiful! This was an almost perfect first date of the relationship!!!

Tue, 23 Nov 2004 23:58:41 GMT

*The \\\\*
Last Cigarette:	Yesterday
Last Alcoholic Drink:	Um, a month or so ago
Last Car Ride:	Yesterday...
Last Kiss:	Um...a while ago..from Zachy..about to get a bunch from the b/f friday
Last Good Cry:	Last Night
Last Library Book:	Um, Plain Song
Last book bought:	Honest Illusions
Last Book Read:	Midnight Bayou
Last Movie Seen in Theatres:	After the Sunset
Last Movie Rented:	Stepford Wives and Lady Killers
Last Cuss Word Uttered:	That's a big ASS snake...
Last Beverage Drank:	Cream Soda
Last Food Consumed:	A Bagel
Last Crush:	Darius...I'm still crushing him....
Last Phone Call:	Right now...Darius
Last TV Show Watched:	Will and Grace
Last Time Showered:	5:00 p.m. today
Last Shoes Worn:	my fake burkies
Last CD Played:	by burned copy of Usher Confessions
Last Item Bought:	Ticket for the B-bal game last night
Last Download:	The Usher C.D.
Last Annoyance:	ulgh....my dad and the dogs
Last Disappointment:	Um...I guess myself......
Last Soda Drank:	Cream Soda
Last Thing Written:	A note to myself
Last Key Used:	The key to the car
Last Words Spoken:	"Alright, Bye Baby"
Last Sleep:	right before I woke up at 1 p.m. today
Last Ice Cream Eaten:	Starbucks Java Chip
Last Chair Sat In:	My computer chair, right now
Last Webpage Visited:	this one
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